Blackness Terror Horror Demons Memories Abandonments, given and taken.

when those you love become those you hate

you hate because you fear

defenceless silent uncomprehending

why don't you love me

why won't you play with me i got nice toys

what have i done to you i didnt mean it let me make it better

please mam don't shout at me

be nice like you sometimes are

i'm trying to be good but i don't know what you want

i'll read a book and close my ears to the shouting

maybe dad will kill her this time

i'll think about the universe and Newtons laws

so painless so easy

and i'll listen to the finest music

drowns them out

i'll leave as soon as i can

but you can only check out

it never goes always there never leaves fucks you up

they hate me not their child well, not like them

five and three fifty three

house

and prime

she never knew that